While driving home today I heard on the radio that Kim Kardashian didnt want to be seen in public until she weighed 115lbs. I was confused by this, who cares what she looks like she just gave birth to a baby, what her weight number is should be the last thing on her or the publics mind.
Later today I was told by someone who hasn't seen me in 2 years that I got fat, at first I was upset. Then I thought what my body has been through, in the last 5 years I have carried and given birth to 4 amazing children, I have dealt with the death of my brother, made it through a deployment and many TDY's away from my husband. Of course I would like to loose a little bit of weight but for now my body is the way it is, and I have no problem with that.
I grew up in a home where my mom struggled with how she looked constantly. Even though my dad, brothers and myself think my mom is beautiful she struggles herself to see it. I think she forgets what her body has been through, carrying 3 children, adding another member to our family along the way, countless mishaps & struggles, the death of her son, moved my family over 7 times, been a teacher for over 30 years, opened her house & heart to many people.With everything that my mom has been through she has taught me beauty is not about the outside but whats inside.
I think about my two daughters who are 4 years and 9 months. My 4 year old just recently started asking me if people will make fun of her because her tummy sticks out. Tears fill my eyes everytime I tell her no you are beautiful inside and out no matter what anyone says. I pray my daughters can grow up and learn that it doesn't matter what beauty you have on the outside what really matters is what you carry on the inside.
To the moms who struggle to see their new beautiful body, take a look around and see what you've accomplished.
To the moms who have figured out how to balance everything and look the way that makes you happy Good for you!
To the woman who look down on people who look the way they do, shame on you, you have no idea what road they have walked.
Sunday, February 2, 2014
Saturday, January 11, 2014
The choas of our family just got more choatic!!!!
As many of you know my husband is in the air force. In March of 2012 we found out we had orders to move to England. I was beyond scared but also excited. The year went by quick and on December 2 my family boarded an airplane and took an 8 hour flight to London. We live a couple hours north of London now and absolutely love it. Our adventure here has been anything but easy but we've made it and we will continue to make it.
A1, A2, A3, & A4 have all adjusted well but man that first week we were here was hard. Where we live now is about 5 hours ahead of what we are used to. We were up at all sorts of the night and slept at the oddest times. The thing that made us finally switch to normal times was enrolling A1 in school. A couple days after we arrived here we went house hunting. Talk about an awesome experience. We looked at 10 houses. Some were WAY to small for us, some were shaped so funny, some were too much money and then there was the perfect house for us. It was a 4 bedroom with a study plus an extra "spare" room off the sunroom. We put an offer on the house to rent it and the landlord accepted it. See here in England they negotiate the rent so we were able to talk him down to what we could afford. It wasn't an easy ride moving into the house but we moved in on December 20. We spent 3 nights in the house living on air mattresses and having little to no things. On December 23 all of our stuff arrived, it was one of the best days of my life!!! I never thought I would be so happy to see my bed. Christmas and new years came and went, I think we both missed being back in Abilene with our "family" it was the first year in 3 years we hadn't done a new years party with our friends.
After Christmas break which was just last week I enrolled A2 into a British school, so car she loves it. She goes everyday and always comes home with a huge smile. A3 is old enough to go to nursery here for 15 hours free. We send him 3 days a week so its a good break for him and gives me to spend time with A4. I also have the opportunity to help out in classrooms now. Ive never been able to do that until now and I am so excited I'm able to be apart of that part of the kids life.
On Friday morning of this week R left to go help guard a helicopter crash that happened. We have no idea how long he will be gone. I was very upset at first but its the life of the military. I'm still getting used to living in a new country and now I get to take is head on. Ive met some very kind woman who have offered to help me get used to it around here. I'm hoping I pick it up quickly and I can start shopping locally to start back to making our own stuff!!! I defiantly miss being in the kitchen!
This move to a new country has been anything but easy. We have survived and we will continue to push through anything that is thrown at us. I'm hoping to start blogging more on our adventures that we take and the new things that we learn here :)
A1, A2, A3, & A4 have all adjusted well but man that first week we were here was hard. Where we live now is about 5 hours ahead of what we are used to. We were up at all sorts of the night and slept at the oddest times. The thing that made us finally switch to normal times was enrolling A1 in school. A couple days after we arrived here we went house hunting. Talk about an awesome experience. We looked at 10 houses. Some were WAY to small for us, some were shaped so funny, some were too much money and then there was the perfect house for us. It was a 4 bedroom with a study plus an extra "spare" room off the sunroom. We put an offer on the house to rent it and the landlord accepted it. See here in England they negotiate the rent so we were able to talk him down to what we could afford. It wasn't an easy ride moving into the house but we moved in on December 20. We spent 3 nights in the house living on air mattresses and having little to no things. On December 23 all of our stuff arrived, it was one of the best days of my life!!! I never thought I would be so happy to see my bed. Christmas and new years came and went, I think we both missed being back in Abilene with our "family" it was the first year in 3 years we hadn't done a new years party with our friends.
After Christmas break which was just last week I enrolled A2 into a British school, so car she loves it. She goes everyday and always comes home with a huge smile. A3 is old enough to go to nursery here for 15 hours free. We send him 3 days a week so its a good break for him and gives me to spend time with A4. I also have the opportunity to help out in classrooms now. Ive never been able to do that until now and I am so excited I'm able to be apart of that part of the kids life.
On Friday morning of this week R left to go help guard a helicopter crash that happened. We have no idea how long he will be gone. I was very upset at first but its the life of the military. I'm still getting used to living in a new country and now I get to take is head on. Ive met some very kind woman who have offered to help me get used to it around here. I'm hoping I pick it up quickly and I can start shopping locally to start back to making our own stuff!!! I defiantly miss being in the kitchen!
This move to a new country has been anything but easy. We have survived and we will continue to push through anything that is thrown at us. I'm hoping to start blogging more on our adventures that we take and the new things that we learn here :)
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